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somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
by e.e. cummings
somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending; nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing (i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands |
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Sonnet XIII
by Elizabeth Barrett Browning AND wilt thou have me fashion into speech
The love I bear thee, finding words enough,
And hold the torch out, while the winds are rough,
Between our faces, to cast light on each?
I drop it at thy feet. I cannot teach
My hand to hold my spirit so far off
From myself—me—that I should bring thee proof
In words, of love hid in me out of reach.
Nay, let the silence of my womanhood
Commend my woman-love to thy belief,—
Seeing that I stand unwon, however wooed,
And rend the garment of my life, in brief,
By a most dauntless, voiceless fortitude,
Lest one touch of this heart convey its grief. |
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The Heart of a Woman
by Georgia Douglas Johnson The heart of a woman goes forth with the dawn,
As a lone bird, soft winging, so restlessly on,
Afar o'er life's turrets and vales does it roam
In the wake of those echoes the heart calls home. The heart of a woman falls back with the night,
And enters some alien cage in its plight,
And tries to forget it has dreamed of the stars
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The City That Best Fits You Is New York City
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60% New York City
55% Boston
50% Miami
45% Chicago
45% Honolulu
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You Belong in NYC
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You're a person on the go, and you need to be in a city that never sleeps.
You enjoy being inspired by people who are as ambitious as you are.
You're the type of person who works hard and plays hard. You need constant stimulation.
Cultured and street smart, you can truly appreciate everything New York has to offer.
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You Belong in the East Village
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A little bit arty, a little bit punk - you seem to set trends that many people follow.
It's likely that you're an academic of sorts, even if it's just on the weekends.
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You Are Midtown
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You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.
You're the type of person who goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.
You can fit in almost anywhere. You feel equally comfortable in old jeans and designer duds.
You are unpretentious. You are neither a snob nor a hipster. You're just you.
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You Belong in San Francisco
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You crave an eclectic, urban environment. You're half California, half NYC.
You're open minded, tolerant, and secretly think you're the best.
People may dismiss you as a hippie, but you're also progressive, interesting, and rich!
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Seems like this is going to be weekly thing. Until I find the answers for myself, these virtual psychologists should certainly have to do.
You Are a Bay
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You are a blissful, peaceful person. Some might call you spiritual.
You are easy-going and tranquil. You take solace in life's sweet moments.
You are sentimental and open-hearted. You love many people, places, and things.
You try to live an enlightened life. You are benevolent, noble, and intuitive.
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You Are the Communicator
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You are a collector and facilitator of knowledge. You love storytelling and teaching.
You light up when you're around other people, and you especially light up in front of a crowd.
You are a charismatic person who's genuinely a joy to be with. You remind others to have fun.
You love life, and you're wake up grateful for every new day. This attitude makes the people around you love life as well.
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You Are the Root Chakra
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You are down to earth and stable. You are aware and alert in all aspects in your life.
You are compassionate and connected to other people. You enjoy spending time with others.
You are comfortable with your body and very agile. You are coordinated, if not athletic.
You take good care of your health and your body. You enjoy being physically active and eating healthy foods.
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Your Animal is the Cat
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You are independent to the point of being stubborn. You stick to your values.
You are loyal, trustworthy, and honest. You are very devoted to your family.
You are aloof towards those you don't know well, but you are affectionate with those you are close to.
You are a creative, sensual, and mysterious person. You are agile and flexible.
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Your True Birth Month Is July
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Tactful
Honest
Friendly
Homebody
Secretive
Sentimental
Hardworking
Approachable
Fun to be with
Has reputation
Not revengeful
Very emotional
Wary and sharp
Easily consoled
Witty and snarky
Overly concerned
Waits for friends
Likes to be quiet
Caring and loving
Loves to be alone
Loves to be loved
Moody and easily hurt
Treats others equally
Puts in effort in work
Takes pride in oneself
Strong sense of sympathy
No difficulties in studying
Forgiving but never forgets
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Not aggressive unless provoked
Temperamental and unpredictable
Concerned about people's feelings
Judge people through observations
Easily hurt but takes long to recover
Guides others physically and mentally
Dislikes the nonsensical and unnecessary
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Always broods about the past and the old friends
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Your Thinking is Concrete and Sequential
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You are precise, orderly, and realistic.
You tend to get to the point and get things done.
Difficult, detailed work is easy for you. You take things step by step.
Time limits aren't a problem for you either. You work well with deadlines.
What does drive you crazy is any sort of task that isn't precisely laid out.
You don't like anything to be ambiguous. You prefer to deal with the facts at hand.
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Your Socks Say You're Successful
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You Are:
- Always careful
- A strong person
- Known as wealthy
- Very pleasant
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You Should Live in a Small City
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You are definitely an urban person, but not any old city will do.
You want a city that matches you well. For you, big cities lack individuality.
You prefer a smaller city with lots of personality, local culture, and history.
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You Attract an Aquarius
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When wacky, eccentric, independent Aquarius meet you, they've met their match.
You're just as unique and outspoken as any Aquarius, and as a result, they feel instantly connected to you.
And while you know you and your Aquarius are meant to be, you always allow for space in your relationship.
The last thing your Aquarius wants is to feel fenced in. You know that in this case, absence really does make the heart grow fonder.
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You Are a Crossword Puzzle
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You are well read, and you have a good head for remembering facts.
You are a wordsmith. You have a way with words, and you're very literate.
You are a mysterious person who enjoys dropping little clues every now and then.
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You Are a Colon
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You are very orderly and fact driven.
You aren't concerned much with theories or dreams... only what's true or untrue.
You are brilliant and incredibly learned. Anything you know is well researched.
You like to make lists and sort through things step by step. You aren't subject to whim or emotions.
Your friends see you as a constant source of knowledge and advice.
(But they are a little sick of you being right all of the time!)
You excel in: Leadership positions
You get along best with: The Semi-Colon
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You Are Copper
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You are provocative and challenging. You help people realize who they really are.
You live a very balanced life. You always take time for love and art.
You are both a powerful and generous person. You always have time to give back.
People find you to be incredibly ethical and loyal.
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Your Personality at 35,000 Feet Is Thoughtful and Contemplative
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Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking.
You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are.
Your gift is having a good eye. You take amazing picture and have the natural talent for most visual arts.
You are inspired by challenges. If something is hard to accomplish, you want to do it.
It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.
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Mar. 15th, 2009 @ 10:24 pm
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You Would Be a Crafty Superhero
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You are naturally curious and even a bit of a snoop. You like to have dirt on everyone - both enemies and friends.
You need a lot of freedom in your life. You like to do your own thing, and you don't fit into any normal mold.
You understand people quite well and often know what others are thinking. Because of this, you can get people to do what you want.
You tend to feel apart from the rest of the world. You don't really fit in, and you don't try to!
You are a true intellectual. You are thirsty for knowledge, and you are curious about the world.
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You Are YIELD
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When you're confronted with a problem, you slow down and assess exactly what is going on.
You don't want to act too quickly, but you will act when you know the coast is clear.
You believe that going too fast and going too slow can be equally damaging.
You aim to end up somewhere in the middle between recklessness and stagnation.
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Your Dress Says You're Funky Stylish
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Your Personal Style:
Eclectic and very unique. You don't follow fashion. You prefer to create your own trends.
Your Ideal Wedding:
Just the two of you, saying your vows while skydiving or flying around in a hot air balloon.
Your Philosophy on Marriage:
It's a risk like everything else, and hopefully a big adventure.
Your Perfect Marriage:
Having someone to share memories with, without feeling tied down or constrained
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You Are a Bullmastiff
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You are confident, reasonable, and very calm. Nothing shakes you up.
It's likely that you were a bit wild when you were younger, but you've gotten that out of your system.
The only time you get aggressive is when someone tries to threaten or harm you in some way.
There's a little bit of wolf underneath all that sheep's clothing!
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You Are the Tree Pose
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You are a well grounded, down to earth person. Not much shakes you.
You can remain steady through a crisis - and other people lean on you.
You have high standards and morals. You easily rise above pettiness.
While people sometimes accuse you of being stubborn, you are able to shift focus when you need to.
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You Would Win Best Documentary Feature
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You are very curious about and engaged with the world. Everyone is interesting to you.
You have a variety of interests, and you delve into them quite deeply.
People are impressed by the sheer quantity of stuff you know, and you're learning more every day.
However, you're not just informed. You also are very informative. You share what you know in an engaging and interesting way.
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Mar. 8th, 2009 @ 11:16 am
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I thought of saying something -- writing something, actually, oh my God, what a miracle -- but, you know what? Never mind.
Aug. 13th, 2008 @ 08:50 pm
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What Your Taste in Music Says About You
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Your musical tastes are reflective and complex.
You are intellectual to the point of being cerebral.
You are very open to new experiences, and even more open to new ideas and theories.
Wisdom and personal accomplishment are important to you.
You are naturally sophisticated. You are drawn to art, especially art by independent artists.
You are likely to be financially well off... and not because you were born that way.
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You Should Play the Harp
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You are a sensitive soul, with a great admiration for beauty.
You definitely have what it takes to make beautiful music, but most instruments are too harsh for you.
You are subtle, shy, and even a bit spoiled. You're very picky about most aspects of your life.
It's just your style to play an eccentric, hard to transport instrument like the harp that few people consider.
Overall, you have the relaxed demeanor of a leisurely upper class person, and your music would reflect that.
Your calm yet soulful harp playing would be sure to help people forget their troubles for a while.
Your dominant personality characteristic: your zen-ness
Your secondary personality characteristic: your quiet independence
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You Are Classical Music
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You are a somewhat serious person who enjoys studying subjects deeply.
Art of all kinds interests you, and a good piece of art can really effect you emotionally.
You are inspired by human achievement, and you appreciate work that takes years to accomplish.
For you, the finer things in life are not about snobbery - they're about quality.
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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 03:53 pm
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You Are a Ferris Wheel
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Deep down, you are a fun, whimsical, and easygoing person.
You often enjoy life for what it is, and the littlest changes in course can be quite thrilling.
In relationships, people tend to feel what you feel. It can be liberating at first...
But after a while, the people closest to you end up feeling a little trapped.
Your life has perfectly normal cycles of ups and downs.
However, you can't help but sometimes feel that you're missing out on the most exciting aspects of life.
You only are happy when you're experiencing the highest of highs.
Your low points just make you feel depressed, restless, and bored.
At your best, you feel on top of the world with a great sense of perspective.
You believe that anything is possible, and that you are happily looking down on everyone else.
At your worst, you feel like your life is going in circles. You often feel like you're not going anywhere.
This is sometimes psychologically disorienting. And sometimes it brings on a sense of hopelessness.
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Your Heart is Feeling Shy
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Your heart certainly has some strong feelings, you're just not sure if you're ready to let them show.
You could be someone's secret admirer, or maybe you just haven't truly expressed how deep your feelings run.
Maybe you're still a little unsure about how you feel... or your unsure about what reaction you'll get.
Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Clamming up and running away from love
Your current outlook on love: Introspective and a bit detached
Your love life will improve if you: Put yourself out there a little more. If you don't try, you'll never know.
Watch out for: Having a one sided romance - you need to be sure you're feelings are reciprocated
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Mar. 11th, 2008 @ 04:13 pm
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You Are the Super Ego
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While some people may think first and act later... you often don't act at all.
You rather be safe than sorry, and you take ethics pretty seriously.
Like everyone, you have some pretty crazy desires. But unlike everyone, you restrain yourself.
You have high standards for your own behavior. And you happily exceed them.
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Using my nickname:
You Are The Fool
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You are a fascinating person who is way beyond the concerns of this world.
Young at heart, you are blissfully unaware of any dangers ahead.
You are a true wanderer - it has be difficult finding your place in this world.
Full of confidence, you are likely to take a leap of faith.
Your fortune:
You are about to embark on a new phase in your life.
This may mean changing locations, jobs, friends, or love status.
You are open about what the future will bring, and free of worry.
You have made your peace with fate, and you're ready to start down your new path.
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You Are Expressionism
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Moody, emotional, and even a bit angsty... you certainly know how to express your emotions.
At times, you tend to lack perspective on your life, probably as a result of looking inward too much.
This introspection does give you a flair for the dramatic. And it's even maybe made you cultivate some artistic talents!
You have a true artist's temperament... which is a blessing and a curse.
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You Should Rule Saturn
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Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.
You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.
And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.
You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.
You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.
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Nov. 18th, 2007 @ 07:40 pm
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I found this old file in one of my laptop folders. Thought I'd share it (even if only now). I wrote it the morning after I took a series of heart tests at Makati Med, because of a so-called "heart murmur" diagnosed, on all days, last Valentine's Day.
It just occured to me that the date of writing is also ironic. Or maybe not--maybe the date, coupled with the day before, put me in the mood. I don't pretend that this is any sort of a good work, but I just want to share the usual dose of convoluted-ness, sarcasm and melancholy.
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20 August 2007
9AM 2D-Eco Heart Test @ Makati Med. SPLOSHPHHT My heart makes squidgy, squishing noises like the sound that water makes
when a grown-up tramps through shin-deep flood
raising one leg up with bended knee
restraining a tantrum through gritted teeth
and brings it down, splosh! and brings it down, splosh! oh, bring it down, splosh! (or the sound could have been of lava boiling) and there's the strange sporadic hiss
of something spraying
a cat, annoyed, is about to pounce
or a tire has already burst... splosh, splosh! phhht! phhhht!
goes the racket of my heart the lady at the heart machine
furrows her brow at the noises
she tinkers around at the great steel board
and frowns at the fluctuating screen She wanted to listen to my heart. she, in that professional blue coat
wanted to listen to my heart Sploshphhht!
Nov. 4th, 2007 @ 10:06 pm
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"Beezelbub has descended upon the earth, and her name is Marion Bartoli, a.k.a the French Fat Ass." --- Vida
Henin had lost a set. And was losing another one. Swiftly, clearly, and Goddamnf*cking unbelievably.
Bartoli. One winner there. Another winner there. And ANOTHER winner there. And another winner----THERE! Marion Bartoli was absolutely outplaying Justine Henin. Absolutely and unflinchingly. Henin was blown away.
And one year of waiting, one year since last year's Wimbledon final when Amelie Mauresmo took the title after Henin had taken a set. Half a year since Maria Sharapova hopped about center court at the US Open after downing Henin in straight sets. Less than a month after the beautiful 2007 French Open (oh, I still remember the Jankovic semifinal and feast upon the sight of all that trademark Henin tennis glory!). Less than two days after that astounding Wimbledon semifinal VICTORY over Serena Williams.
This. Marion Bartoli. I'd never even seen her before. The semifinals at Wimbledon. The one f*cking Grand Slam Henin needed to get everything there is to be gotten in tennis. The world number one. Henin. My Justine Henin. Losing to a virtual unknown. Losing to a fat butch virtual f*cking UNKNOWN.
And all I could think about was: What a fantastic sports story this would make.
What a fantastic story!
Jul. 7th, 2007 @ 03:01 am
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The Makers
by Howard Nemerov Who can remember back to the first poets,
The greatest ones, greater even than Orpheus?
No one has remembered that far back
Or now considers, among the artifacts,
And bones and cantilevered inference
The past is made of, those first and greatest poets,
So lofty and disdainful of renown
They left us not a name to know them by.
They were the ones that in whatever tongue
Worded the world, that were the first to say
Star, water, stone, that said the visible
And made it bring invisibles to view
In wind and time and change, and in the mind
Itself that minded the hitherto idiot world
And spoke the speechless world and sang the towers
Of the city into the astonished sky.
They were the first great listeners, attuned
To interval, relationship, and scale,
The first to say above, beneath, beyond,
Conjurors with love, death, sleep, with bread and wine,
Who having uttered vanished from the world
Leaving no memory but the marvelous
Magical elements, the breathing shapes
And stops of breath we build our Babels of.
May. 18th, 2007 @ 11:58 pm
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Part of my angst comes from the fact that I believe in God and yet know that He will never live my life for me.
Mar. 4th, 2007 @ 07:33 pm
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| » Abot-tanaw. |
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Nagkamali ako. Inakala kong natanto ko na kung ano ang tumatawag sa akin ng Meron. Hindi pala. Sa katapusan -- o, malapit na malapit na sa katapusan -- nauunawaan kong pinili ko lang pala "Ito." Hindi ako tumingin; sumilip siguro, nabighani sa madaliang pagpapakita ng kaakit-akit na panaginip (nakabaon pa rin sa sarili, ang di matakasang sarili), ngunit hindi ko pinagmasdan. Hindi ako nagmasid. Ngayon ako'y nahatak palabas, napa-isang tabi sa landas, nakikita ko na muli. Ang Meron na pinaglingkuran ko ay hindi pala ang buong Meron. Meron nga, ngunit bahagi lamang. Ako'y nahigop at nadala, naanod ng akit ng ilog kahit may karagatan pa. At karagatan ang tinatanaw ko ngayon --- ang masasabing, sa panahon na ito, ang pinakamalawak na Meron ayon sa aking abot-tanaw. Lalawak pa, o kaya'y liliit pa. Ngunit naririto pa rin, at nasasakop ang isang sulok na minsa'y (at patuloy, kung ako'y magpapaka-kunganopa) tinuring kong buong mundo.
Feb. 24th, 2007 @ 12:03 am
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Unspeaking love and silent loyalty ---
Slowly, slowly, we come to realize who are those we truly love.
Feb. 21st, 2007 @ 08:12 pm
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"You should not do the right thing for the wrong reasons."
Agree or disagree?
Dec. 21st, 2006 @ 12:45 am
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I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me.
Yeah...
Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
Jul. 28th, 2006 @ 12:00 pm
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